致妙清：四十岁的人生感悟

时光荏苒，转眼间，我已迎来了自己的四十岁生日。回首过去的一年，感慨万千。

2023 年 5 月，我在成都市第三人民医院经历了心脏瓣膜手术，那是一段艰难的时光，让我对生命有了更深的敬畏。而去年五月，我的老丈人因心梗突然离世，这突如其来的打击让我更加明白生命的脆弱与无常。

在这一年里，我从 9 月开始发表抖音成都街巷视频，讲述少城街巷、成都桥、非少城街巷的历史。我将脑海中的智慧分享出来，希望能让更多的人了解这座城市的故事。曾经，我在乎别人的眼光，在乎谁更先进，谁得到的奖金更高。然而，随着岁月的流逝，我逐渐明白，这些外在的物质都是过眼云烟，“一切有为法，如梦幻泡影，如露亦如电，应作如是观。”就如《金刚经》中所云，世间万物皆无常，那些物质的追求终究不过是一场空。

如今，我更珍视那些能带得走的东西，比如情感、感情和刻骨铭心的记忆。我开始用苹果手机录制视频，将其发布在抖音上，让我的讲解传递给每一个人。这看似是用带不走的物质换取了带得走的记忆，但其实，这是我对生命意义的重新追寻。“心无挂碍，无挂碍故，无有恐怖。”正如《心经》所言，当我们放下内心的执着和牵挂，才能真正获得内心的平静和安宁。过去，我为了功名利禄而奔波，内心充满了焦虑和恐惧。而现在，我通过分享知识和历史，感受到了一种前所未有的满足和快乐。四十岁的我，不再被世俗的标准所束缚，不再为了虚荣和攀比而活。我明白了人生的真谛在于内心的富足和灵魂的安宁。每一个抖音视频下的评论和点赞，都让我感受到了人与人之间的连接和温暖，这是金钱无法买到的珍贵财富。

回顾这四十年的人生，有欢笑也有泪水，有成功也有失败。但正是这些经历，塑造了今天的我。我不再为过去的错误而懊悔，也不再为未来的未知而恐惧。因为我知道，无论发生什么，都是生命的一部分，都是我成长的契机。在未来的日子里，我希望能够继续保持这份初心，用更多的视频记录下生活中的美好和智慧。我要把更多的爱给予家人和朋友，珍惜每一个与他们相处的瞬间。因为，当我们离开这个世界时，真正能留下的，只有那些温暖人心的情感和回忆。四十岁，是人生的一个新起点。我将带着这份感悟，勇敢地迎接未来的挑战和机遇，用一颗宽容、善良和感恩的心，去书写属于自己的精彩人生。愿我们都能在这短暂而珍贵的人生旅途中，找到真正属于自己的幸福和意义。

Time flies. In the blink of an eye, I have ushered in my fortieth birthday. Looking back on the past year, I am filled with countless emotions.

In May 2023, I underwent heart valve surgery at Chengdu Third People's Hospital. That was a difficult time that made me hold a deeper reverence for life. And last May, my father-in-law suddenly passed away due to a heart attack. This sudden blow made me understand even more the fragility and impermanence of life.

During this year, I started posting Douyin videos about the streets of Chengdu in September, telling the history of Shaocheng streets, Chengdu bridges, and non-Shaocheng streets. I shared the wisdom in my mind, hoping to let more people know the stories of this city.

Once upon a time, I cared about the opinions of others, who was more advanced, and who received a higher bonus. However, as time passed, I gradually realized that all these external materials are fleeting clouds. "All conditioned phenomena are like a dream, an illusion, a bubble, and a shadow. They are like dew and lightning, and should be regarded thus." Just as mentioned in the "Diamond Sutra", everything in the world is impermanent, and those pursuits of materials are ultimately nothing but an illusion.

Nowadays, I cherish more those things that I can take away, such as emotions, feelings, and unforgettable memories. I started using an iPhone to record videos and post them on Douyin, allowing my explanations to reach everyone. This seemingly exchanging the material things that I can't take away for the memories that I can take away is actually my re-pursuit of the meaning of life.

"With no attachments, because of no attachments, there is no terror." Just as stated in the "Heart Sutra", when we let go of the inner persistence and concerns, we can truly obtain inner peace and tranquility. In the past, I rushed about for fame and fortune, and my heart was filled with anxiety and fear. Now, through sharing knowledge and history, I feel an unprecedented sense of satisfaction and happiness.

At the age of forty, I am no longer bound by worldly standards and no longer live for vanity and comparisons. I have understood that the true meaning of life lies in inner richness and the peace of the soul. Every comment and like under my Douyin videos makes me feel the connection and warmth between people, which is a precious fortune that money cannot buy.

Looking back on these forty years of life, there have been laughter and tears, successes and failures. But it is precisely these experiences that have shaped who I am today. I no longer regret past mistakes nor fear the unknown future. Because I know that no matter what happens, it is all part of life and an opportunity for my growth.

In the days to come, I hope to continue to maintain this original intention and record more beauty and wisdom in life with more videos. I want to give more love to my family and friends and cherish every moment spent with them. Because when we leave this world, what can truly be left behind are only those heartwarming emotions and memories.

At the age of forty, it is a new starting point in life. I will carry this perception, bravely embrace the challenges and opportunities in the future, and write my own wonderful life with a forgiving, kind, and grateful heart. May we all find true happiness and meaning in this short and precious journey of life.