致妙清：在利他中遇见生命的光
五月的成都，阳光穿过八宝广场的梧桐树叶，在义诊台上洒下斑驳的光影。今天是家庭医生节，我们团队在广场上支起蓝色帐篷，为居民量血压、答疑解惑。当一位老人握着我的手，颤巍巍地说“谢谢你们来”时，我突然想起两年前躺在手术台上的自己，那个被嫉妒和执念填满的灵魂，如今竟能在这样的场景中，感受到前所未有的充实与安宁。
一、困在“自我”迷宫里的迷途者
曾经的我，是医院信息科的技术骨干，却也是个彻头彻尾的“自我主义者”。那时的我，把职场当成角斗场，把同事陈超视为必须打败的对手。我计较他比我多的1000元工资，计较他在会议上对我方案的否定，甚至计较他接人待物时的每一个眼神、每一句语气。在信息科的办公室里，我像一只浑身长满尖刺的刺猬，用“计较、郁闷、纠结、嫌弃、抱怨”筑起高高的围墙，把自己困在名为“自我”的迷宫里。
我曾无数次在深夜加班时幻想：如果有一天，陈超能对我说出一句真诚的“谢谢”，该有多好。这个念头就像一根细细的线，牵引着我在日复一日的职场竞争中疲于奔命。我以为，只有战胜他，只有让他认可我，我才能获得幸福和满足。却不知道，当一个人眼里只有“自我”的得失，便注定会陷入无尽的痛苦与焦虑。那些被我用来“计较”的时间，本可以用来提升技术、陪伴家人，或是帮助同事解决一个棘手的问题。但那时的我，看不见这些，只看得见自己心中那团燃烧的妒火。
二、生死边缘的灵魂觉醒
命运的转折发生在2023年。当医生告诉我需要进行心脏瓣膜置换手术时，我以为人生的帷幕即将落下。躺在病床上等待手术的日子里，我第一次如此清晰地感受到生命的脆弱。那些曾经让我夜不能寐的职场恩怨，突然变得无比虚幻。我开始问自己：人为什么要活在这个世界上？难道就是为了与他人比高低、争长短？
手术当天，当麻醉药逐渐生效，我望着手术室天花板上的灯光，内心突然涌起一股前所未有的平静。那一刻，我放下了所有的“自我”执念，只想活着，只想再看看家人的笑脸，再感受一次阳光的温暖。幸运的是，我挺过了手术，在ICU的白炽灯下迎来了重生。
在ICU的日子里，我看着医生护士们为了挽救我的生命日夜忙碌，看着家人为了我红着眼圈却强装坚强，突然懂得：生命的意义，从来不是围绕“自我”的团团转，而是学会关心他人、照亮他人。当我不再把陈超视为对手，而是看作共同奋斗的同事；当我不再计较个人的得失，而是想着如何用自己的技术为患者提供更便捷的医疗服务，心中的阴霾竟渐渐散去。
三、在利他中遇见幸福的真相
出院后回到工作岗位，我试着用全新的心态面对陈超，面对周围的一切。那天，我特意带了一包老家的茶叶放在他的办公桌上，附上一张字条：“感谢平时的指导。”原本只是想表达一份善意，却没想到，当他看到茶叶时，竟露出了真诚的笑容，对我说：“谢谢你，一直以来辛苦了。”
那一刻，我突然眼眶发酸。曾经以为需要“无数计较”才能换来的一句“谢谢”，原来在放下执念、真心付出时，竟来得如此容易。这份幸福，比任何职场上的胜利都更让我心安。我终于明白：人生的快乐，往往藏在“自我”之外的世界里。当我们真正学会不带目的地关心他人，当我们把目光从“自我”的小天地移向更广阔的人间，所收获的温暖与感动，胜过全世界的名利繁华。
就像今天的家庭医生节义诊，当我们为居民免费检查身体、耐心解答疑问时，那些真诚的笑容、朴实的感谢，让我深刻体会到“利他”的力量。一位带着孙子来咨询的阿姨说：“你们这些年轻人，愿意花时间陪我们老年人聊天、看病，比自家孩子还贴心。”听着这样的话，我忽然懂得：原来幸福从来不是单一的快乐，而是用无数次的付出、理解与包容，编织而成的生命之光。那些曾经的痛苦、嫌弃、计较，在“利他”的光芒下，都成了成长的注脚。
四、生命的意义，藏在“无我”的辽阔里
哲学家罗素说过：“对爱情的渴望，对知识的追求，对人类苦难不可遏制的同情心，这三种纯洁而无比强烈的激情支配着我的一生。”如今的我，终于对这句话有了深刻的体会。在信息科，我不再纠结于与陈超的竞争，而是主动分享技术经验，和他一起优化医院的信息系统；在生活中，我加入了社区志愿者团队，每个周末都会去帮助独居老人检修家电、陪他们聊天。当我把“自我”的边界一点点拓宽，当我学会用自己的能力去温暖他人，才发现生命的意义竟如此辽阔。
有人说，人生是一场修行，而修行的最高境界，便是“无我”。这种“无我”，不是否定自我，而是超越自我的局限，让生命与更多的灵魂产生温暖的联结。就像今天八宝广场上的义诊，我们团队的每一个人都在忙碌中忘记了时间，忘记了疲惫，只记得居民们需要帮助的眼神。当一位大叔握着我的手说“你们做的是好事”时，我突然明白：原来人生的价值，从来不是靠“计较”得来，而是在“给予”中实现的。
站在五月的风里，看着义诊现场忙碌的身影，我想起两年前那个在手术台上恐惧不安的自己。那时的我，怎么也想不到，曾经困在“自我”迷宫里的灵魂，有一天会在“利他”的道路上遇见如此明亮的光。原来，人活在这个世界上，不是为了与他人一较高下，而是为了学会爱，学会付出，学会在照亮他人的过程中，让自己的生命变得更加丰盈、更加温暖。
In May, the sun filters through the leaves of the plane trees in Babao Square, casting dappled light on the free clinic desks. Today is Family Doctor Day, and our team has set up blue tents in the square to measure blood pressure and answer questions for residents. When an elderly person held my hand and tremblingly said, "Thank you for coming," I suddenly remembered myself lying on the operating table two years ago—the soul once consumed by jealousy and obsession, now able to feel unprecedented fullness and peace in such a scene.
I. The Lost Soul Trapped in the "Ego" Maze
I used to be a technical backbone in the hospital's information department, but also a complete "egoist." Back then, I saw the workplace as an arena and my colleague Chen Chao as a rival to defeat. I obsessed over his 1,000-yuan higher salary, his negations of my proposals in meetings, and even every glance and tone he used when interacting with others. In the information department office, I was like a hedgehog covered in thorns, building a high wall with "resentment, depression, entanglement, disdain, and complaints," trapping myself in a maze called "ego."
I often fantasized late at night while working overtime: What if one day Chen Chao could say a sincere 'thank you' to me? This thought became a thin thread guiding me through endless workplace competition. I believed that only by defeating him and earning his recognition could I find happiness and satisfaction. But I didn't realize that when one's eyes are fixed only on personal gains and losses, they are destined to fall into endless pain and anxiety. The time I spent "calculating" could have been used to improve my skills, accompany my family, or help colleagues solve tough problems. But back then, I saw none of this—only the blazing fire of jealousy in my heart.
II. Spiritual Awakening on the Brink of Life and Death
Fate took a turn in 2023. When the doctor told me I needed a heart valve replacement, I thought the curtain of life was about to fall. Lying in bed waiting for surgery, I finally felt the fragility of life so vividly. Those workplace grudges that had kept me awake at night suddenly seemed illusory. I asked myself: Why do we live in this world? Is it just to compete with others?
On the day of the surgery, as the anesthetic took effect and I looked at the operating room lights, an unprecedented calm washed over me. In that moment, I let go of all "ego" obsessions, only longing to live—to see my family's smiles again and feel the warmth of the sun. Fortunately, I survived the surgery and woke up in the ICU under the bright lights, reborn.
During my days in the ICU, watching doctors and nurses work day and night to save my life, and seeing my family force a smile through red eyes, I finally understood: The meaning of life has never been about revolving around the "ego," but about learning to care for and light up others. When I stopped seeing Chen Chao as a rival and began to view him as a colleague striving together, when I stopped obsessing over personal gains and focused on how my skills could provide more convenient medical services for patients, the haze in my heart gradually lifted.
III. Encountering the Truth of Happiness in Altruism
After returning to work, I tried to face Chen Chao and everything around me with a new mindset. One day, I特意 (specially) brought a packet of tea from my hometown and placed it on his desk with a note: "Thanks for your guidance." I had only intended to express goodwill, but when he saw the tea, he smiled sincerely and said, "Thank you for your hard work all this time."
In that moment, my eyes suddenly grew moist. The "thank you" I had thought could only be earned through "endless计较 (calculations)" had come so easily when I let go of my obsessions and gave sincerely. This happiness felt more reassuring than any workplace victory. I finally understood: The joy of life often lies beyond the "ego." When we truly learn to care for others without ulterior motives, when we shift our gaze from the small world of the "ego" to the broader human experience, the warmth and touch we gain are more valuable than all the fame and fortune in the world.
Just like today's Family Doctor Day free clinic, when we checked residents' health for free and answered their questions patiently, their sincere smiles and simple thanks deeply impressed me with the power of "altruism." An aunt who came with her grandson said, "You young people are willing to spend time chatting with us seniors and checking our health—more thoughtful than our own children." Hearing this, I suddenly understood: Happiness is never a single emotion, but a light woven from countless moments of giving, understanding, and tolerance. Those past pains, disdains, and计较 (calculations) had all become footnotes to growth in the light of altruism.
IV. The Meaning of Life Lies in the Vastness of "Selflessness"
Philosopher Bertrand Russell once said, "Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind." Today, I finally grasp the depth of this statement. In the information department, I no longer fixate on competing with Chen Chao; instead, I take the initiative to share technical experience and optimize the hospital's information system with him. In life, I joined a community volunteer team, spending every weekend helping elderly residents check their appliances and keeping them company. As I gradually expanded the boundaries of my "ego" and learned to warm others with my abilities, I discovered the boundless meaning of life.
Some say life is a journey of cultivation, and the highest realm of cultivation is "selflessness." This "selflessness" does not mean negating the self, but transcending its limitations to connect warmly with more souls. Just like today's free clinic in Babao Square, everyone on our team forgot about time and fatigue while busying themselves, remembering only the residents' eyes that needed help. When an uncle held my hand and said, "You're doing a good deed," I suddenly understood: The value of life is never achieved through "calculation," but through "giving."
Standing in the May wind and watching the busy scene at the free clinic, I recall the fearful person on the operating table two years ago. Back then, I never imagined that the soul trapped in the "ego" maze would one day encounter such bright light on the path of altruism. It turns out that we live not to compete with others, but to learn to love, to give, and to make our lives richer and warmer by lighting up others.
This may be the meaning of life: piecing together our own happiness puzzle with countless "non-ego" moments. Those past pains and entanglements have all become stairs leading to the realm of "selflessness." And when we truly let go of the枷锁 (shackles) of the ego, we will find that the entire world opens its warm embrace to us—just like today's sunlight, filtering through the plane tree leaves to fall on those in need, and illuminating our own souls.
一、困在“自我”迷宫里的迷途者
曾经的我，是医院信息科的技术骨干，却也是个彻头彻尾的“自我主义者”。那时的我，把职场当成角斗场，把同事陈超视为必须打败的对手。我计较他比我多的1000元工资，计较他在会议上对我方案的否定，甚至计较他接人待物时的每一个眼神、每一句语气。在信息科的办公室里，我像一只浑身长满尖刺的刺猬，用“计较、郁闷、纠结、嫌弃、抱怨”筑起高高的围墙，把自己困在名为“自我”的迷宫里。
我曾无数次在深夜加班时幻想：如果有一天，陈超能对我说出一句真诚的“谢谢”，该有多好。这个念头就像一根细细的线，牵引着我在日复一日的职场竞争中疲于奔命。我以为，只有战胜他，只有让他认可我，我才能获得幸福和满足。却不知道，当一个人眼里只有“自我”的得失，便注定会陷入无尽的痛苦与焦虑。那些被我用来“计较”的时间，本可以用来提升技术、陪伴家人，或是帮助同事解决一个棘手的问题。但那时的我，看不见这些，只看得见自己心中那团燃烧的妒火。
二、生死边缘的灵魂觉醒
命运的转折发生在2023年。当医生告诉我需要进行心脏瓣膜置换手术时，我以为人生的帷幕即将落下。躺在病床上等待手术的日子里，我第一次如此清晰地感受到生命的脆弱。那些曾经让我夜不能寐的职场恩怨，突然变得无比虚幻。我开始问自己：人为什么要活在这个世界上？难道就是为了与他人比高低、争长短？
手术当天，当麻醉药逐渐生效，我望着手术室天花板上的灯光，内心突然涌起一股前所未有的平静。那一刻，我放下了所有的“自我”执念，只想活着，只想再看看家人的笑脸，再感受一次阳光的温暖。幸运的是，我挺过了手术，在ICU的白炽灯下迎来了重生。
在ICU的日子里，我看着医生护士们为了挽救我的生命日夜忙碌，看着家人为了我红着眼圈却强装坚强，突然懂得：生命的意义，从来不是围绕“自我”的团团转，而是学会关心他人、照亮他人。当我不再把陈超视为对手，而是看作共同奋斗的同事；当我不再计较个人的得失，而是想着如何用自己的技术为患者提供更便捷的医疗服务，心中的阴霾竟渐渐散去。
三、在利他中遇见幸福的真相
出院后回到工作岗位，我试着用全新的心态面对陈超，面对周围的一切。那天，我特意带了一包老家的茶叶放在他的办公桌上，附上一张字条：“感谢平时的指导。”原本只是想表达一份善意，却没想到，当他看到茶叶时，竟露出了真诚的笑容，对我说：“谢谢你，一直以来辛苦了。”
那一刻，我突然眼眶发酸。曾经以为需要“无数计较”才能换来的一句“谢谢”，原来在放下执念、真心付出时，竟来得如此容易。这份幸福，比任何职场上的胜利都更让我心安。我终于明白：人生的快乐，往往藏在“自我”之外的世界里。当我们真正学会不带目的地关心他人，当我们把目光从“自我”的小天地移向更广阔的人间，所收获的温暖与感动，胜过全世界的名利繁华。
就像今天的家庭医生节义诊，当我们为居民免费检查身体、耐心解答疑问时，那些真诚的笑容、朴实的感谢，让我深刻体会到“利他”的力量。一位带着孙子来咨询的阿姨说：“你们这些年轻人，愿意花时间陪我们老年人聊天、看病，比自家孩子还贴心。”听着这样的话，我忽然懂得：原来幸福从来不是单一的快乐，而是用无数次的付出、理解与包容，编织而成的生命之光。那些曾经的痛苦、嫌弃、计较，在“利他”的光芒下，都成了成长的注脚。
四、生命的意义，藏在“无我”的辽阔里
哲学家罗素说过：“对爱情的渴望，对知识的追求，对人类苦难不可遏制的同情心，这三种纯洁而无比强烈的激情支配着我的一生。”如今的我，终于对这句话有了深刻的体会。在信息科，我不再纠结于与陈超的竞争，而是主动分享技术经验，和他一起优化医院的信息系统；在生活中，我加入了社区志愿者团队，每个周末都会去帮助独居老人检修家电、陪他们聊天。当我把“自我”的边界一点点拓宽，当我学会用自己的能力去温暖他人，才发现生命的意义竟如此辽阔。
有人说，人生是一场修行，而修行的最高境界，便是“无我”。这种“无我”，不是否定自我，而是超越自我的局限，让生命与更多的灵魂产生温暖的联结。就像今天八宝广场上的义诊，我们团队的每一个人都在忙碌中忘记了时间，忘记了疲惫，只记得居民们需要帮助的眼神。当一位大叔握着我的手说“你们做的是好事”时，我突然明白：原来人生的价值，从来不是靠“计较”得来，而是在“给予”中实现的。
站在五月的风里，看着义诊现场忙碌的身影，我想起两年前那个在手术台上恐惧不安的自己。那时的我，怎么也想不到，曾经困在“自我”迷宫里的灵魂，有一天会在“利他”的道路上遇见如此明亮的光。原来，人活在这个世界上，不是为了与他人一较高下，而是为了学会爱，学会付出，学会在照亮他人的过程中，让自己的生命变得更加丰盈、更加温暖。
这或许就是人生的意义：用无数次的“非自我”的瞬间，拼凑成属于自己的幸福拼图。那些曾经的痛苦与纠结，都成了通往“无我”之境的阶梯。而当我们真正放下“自我”的枷锁，便会发现，整个世界都在向我们张开温暖的怀抱。就像今天的阳光，穿过梧桐树叶，落在每一个需要帮助的人身上，也照亮了我们自己的灵魂。
Insights from Family Doctor Festival Free Clinic: Finding the Light of Life in Altruism
In May, the sun filters through the leaves of the plane trees in Babao Square, casting dappled light on the free clinic desks. Today is Family Doctor Day, and our team has set up blue tents in the square to measure blood pressure and answer questions for residents. When an elderly person held my hand and tremblingly said, "Thank you for coming," I suddenly remembered myself lying on the operating table two years ago—the soul once consumed by jealousy and obsession, now able to feel unprecedented fullness and peace in such a scene.
I. The Lost Soul Trapped in the "Ego" Maze
I used to be a technical backbone in the hospital's information department, but also a complete "egoist." Back then, I saw the workplace as an arena and my colleague Chen Chao as a rival to defeat. I obsessed over his 1,000-yuan higher salary, his negations of my proposals in meetings, and even every glance and tone he used when interacting with others. In the information department office, I was like a hedgehog covered in thorns, building a high wall with "resentment, depression, entanglement, disdain, and complaints," trapping myself in a maze called "ego."
I often fantasized late at night while working overtime: What if one day Chen Chao could say a sincere 'thank you' to me? This thought became a thin thread guiding me through endless workplace competition. I believed that only by defeating him and earning his recognition could I find happiness and satisfaction. But I didn't realize that when one's eyes are fixed only on personal gains and losses, they are destined to fall into endless pain and anxiety. The time I spent "calculating" could have been used to improve my skills, accompany my family, or help colleagues solve tough problems. But back then, I saw none of this—only the blazing fire of jealousy in my heart.
II. Spiritual Awakening on the Brink of Life and Death
Fate took a turn in 2023. When the doctor told me I needed a heart valve replacement, I thought the curtain of life was about to fall. Lying in bed waiting for surgery, I finally felt the fragility of life so vividly. Those workplace grudges that had kept me awake at night suddenly seemed illusory. I asked myself: Why do we live in this world? Is it just to compete with others?
On the day of the surgery, as the anesthetic took effect and I looked at the operating room lights, an unprecedented calm washed over me. In that moment, I let go of all "ego" obsessions, only longing to live—to see my family's smiles again and feel the warmth of the sun. Fortunately, I survived the surgery and woke up in the ICU under the bright lights, reborn.
During my days in the ICU, watching doctors and nurses work day and night to save my life, and seeing my family force a smile through red eyes, I finally understood: The meaning of life has never been about revolving around the "ego," but about learning to care for and light up others. When I stopped seeing Chen Chao as a rival and began to view him as a colleague striving together, when I stopped obsessing over personal gains and focused on how my skills could provide more convenient medical services for patients, the haze in my heart gradually lifted.
III. Encountering the Truth of Happiness in Altruism
After returning to work, I tried to face Chen Chao and everything around me with a new mindset. One day, I特意 (specially) brought a packet of tea from my hometown and placed it on his desk with a note: "Thanks for your guidance." I had only intended to express goodwill, but when he saw the tea, he smiled sincerely and said, "Thank you for your hard work all this time."
In that moment, my eyes suddenly grew moist. The "thank you" I had thought could only be earned through "endless计较 (calculations)" had come so easily when I let go of my obsessions and gave sincerely. This happiness felt more reassuring than any workplace victory. I finally understood: The joy of life often lies beyond the "ego." When we truly learn to care for others without ulterior motives, when we shift our gaze from the small world of the "ego" to the broader human experience, the warmth and touch we gain are more valuable than all the fame and fortune in the world.
Just like today's Family Doctor Day free clinic, when we checked residents' health for free and answered their questions patiently, their sincere smiles and simple thanks deeply impressed me with the power of "altruism." An aunt who came with her grandson said, "You young people are willing to spend time chatting with us seniors and checking our health—more thoughtful than our own children." Hearing this, I suddenly understood: Happiness is never a single emotion, but a light woven from countless moments of giving, understanding, and tolerance. Those past pains, disdains, and计较 (calculations) had all become footnotes to growth in the light of altruism.
IV. The Meaning of Life Lies in the Vastness of "Selflessness"
Philosopher Bertrand Russell once said, "Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind." Today, I finally grasp the depth of this statement. In the information department, I no longer fixate on competing with Chen Chao; instead, I take the initiative to share technical experience and optimize the hospital's information system with him. In life, I joined a community volunteer team, spending every weekend helping elderly residents check their appliances and keeping them company. As I gradually expanded the boundaries of my "ego" and learned to warm others with my abilities, I discovered the boundless meaning of life.
Some say life is a journey of cultivation, and the highest realm of cultivation is "selflessness." This "selflessness" does not mean negating the self, but transcending its limitations to connect warmly with more souls. Just like today's free clinic in Babao Square, everyone on our team forgot about time and fatigue while busying themselves, remembering only the residents' eyes that needed help. When an uncle held my hand and said, "You're doing a good deed," I suddenly understood: The value of life is never achieved through "calculation," but through "giving."
Standing in the May wind and watching the busy scene at the free clinic, I recall the fearful person on the operating table two years ago. Back then, I never imagined that the soul trapped in the "ego" maze would one day encounter such bright light on the path of altruism. It turns out that we live not to compete with others, but to learn to love, to give, and to make our lives richer and warmer by lighting up others.
This may be the meaning of life: piecing together our own happiness puzzle with countless "non-ego" moments. Those past pains and entanglements have all become stairs leading to the realm of "selflessness." And when we truly let go of the枷锁 (shackles) of the ego, we will find that the entire world opens its warm embrace to us—just like today's sunlight, filtering through the plane tree leaves to fall on those in need, and illuminating our own souls.
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