佛周记：听海哭的声音

 2015年6月27日   星期六    晴

  今天不是什么节日，也不是什么特殊的日子，当我独自听到这海的声音，突然想写点东西了。不是因为什么人的批评。而是我发现在那人的批评，我应该记录下一些回忆。陈锐说的好：“当有人批评你时，说明他真的是你的朋友。”虽然我有点在意他说得，但是我不会去恨他，我反而要借着海的声音告诉他：谢谢你的教导，如果没有你，我不会发现我将来的路是什么？当然如果没有你的存在，我不会再去回忆曾经的种种。陈锐，在我心里，他是一个启蒙老师，没人能取代他在我心中的地位。他成就了一位谦虚，自信的我。说道我，我决定用以下富有语法错误的英文描述我这段时间的经历：

Lin zhu, yang . She was my new girlfriend . We've got to know each other for two months. How to building new relationship? How to get a  girlfriend ? First, you should understand what she interested ? For example, howard has know she intertested go climbing at first time, so howard try invited her went to He Ming mountains . Second, if she always had a overtime , i will plan an activities with only two persons. For example , i invited her went to cinema at night . My purpose: i try to kiss her when we watching movie behind seat . But i've lost an opportunity in the cinema.  After two weeks , although i lost an opportunity , but i didn't give up her. So I have made a big decision that I'll continue invited her went to a party with my EF  classmates.  When we came back on the way, she told a truth to me. She has been no feeling with me for two  months. I feel so sad when i listen to it. And then, she say: I don't care her. Right, I haven't care her . Because I never like her. but she is my real girlfriend.

通过以上的经历，在Tommy老师的开导下，我渐渐地明白一个道理：

Do you see those bean at here ? It was once that is a small berry. Actually , it would have remained so. I mean, it was plucked from its shell, scorched in flame. Crushed into powder, and boiled in water, then it was transformed become something that is far more delicious, and far more meaningful than a bean. It just is me. A bean.

  其实人生就像一颗豆子一样，我们不断地被去壳，烹煮、烧沸。最终被转化成一杯美味的咖啡。就如我的感情世界一样，不知要经历多少？不知要遇见多少人？也不知在这里面有多少心酸和痛苦？我不知道，我只知道这一切都是命运的安排。从西方论讲，他是上帝的安排。但从佛法理论讲，它是你成佛的必然过程。说句实话，我倒赞成后者，说到这，有人可能又要说我了，你那么年轻，你懂什么？其实这就是区别，我的老朋友，他从来不会这么说，佛说过一句：当你肯定别人做的事时，是对自己最高的肯定。陈锐说过：不要去想结果会是什么？至少你现在已经做了，既做了，那就坚持把它走完。就像这大海一样，随波逐流吧！